Thoughts

I haven't told you yet how the open door day at the fashion academy was. It was great to see everything there! I saw some great creations too!
Though I am a bit concerned about a few things. The fashion academy is one of the best of the world. This means: very difficult entrance exam. It's also a quite experimental school. So I hope they'll appreciate what I do.
I also talked with the headmaster (google to know which famous designer it is!). But i'm a bit concerned about one thing he said. That he will get the gothic out of me. On the one hand, I understand I shouldn't limit myself to typical gothic and already done shit. You have to be original and unique. And that is also what I want to be! But on the other hand, I'm afraid that a school wants to completely change me again. I just don't want that!
As a doubter, I'm also afraid that I am not creative enough. Sometimes I feel so weird, but sometimes I also feel to normal.
Another thing I'm really concerned about is my lack of dicipline. Not that it is really that bad, but sometimes I'm so lazy! (Though I know a lot of people that are worse then me. I just can't say if I'm too lazy or not). I am also always afraid to start something. I really should get rid of the doubter in me. It always keeps questioning everything I do or want to do, it always wat to get me down.

Anyway, I signed in for the entrance exams, so I give it a try! I hope I succeed and I can start making my dream true.
And it is already great that I dared to sign up! Really, normally I would keep on doubting. But what do i have to loose? Yeah, 20 euros + some more on train tickets.. But if I don't try, won't I regret it forever?
I hope I'm good enough to make it some day.
At the moment, with my jewelry, I don't feel like a much original designer (Thank you self-esteem).

Some furter information: I also had troubles with convincing my parents, especially my mother. But I think she juts want the best and the most safe for me.

Today I worked on some school assignments. Finally I did something.. that's what I mean with my lack of dicipline. I just don't work when I don't have deadline. So maybe it's good there are a lot of deadlines in fashion school.

I also finished yesterday two pair of earrings. there are more fimo earrings laying around here to finish :)

Jewelry bussiness isn't going that well.. Which reflects in that I make less
I just want to make something of my life, do what I want, be proud of myself, and create beautiful things.

Shoe modification

I have redesigned an old pair of black shoes. I added gold and painted roses on the heels. I think they came out lovely. Sadly enough, most of the painting is hidden because the heel goes inside. They aren't the most comfortable shoes either, but it was a nice tryout! I think I'm going to buy ever a pair of decent wedges to paint on! Or maybe to glue things on! *creating mood*



I'm also going today visiting the fashion academy in antwerp. I'm a bit nervous actually (even though there are no reasons for it). I hope it will be my thing and I'll be sure about what I want!
Have a nice day!

Lace top

Today some laces patches arrived! They are big and nice, but very smelly. Some are also not pitchblack :( I sewed already a lace on an old (too deep cut out) top. I think it looks nice with the lace and the stripes! Maybe I'm even going to do more with it so it can become one of my favorite summer tops!
Excuse for the not so great pictures :P

Designs

I thought, why shouldn't I show you some some of my fashion sketches? Most of the sketches bellow are inspired on hunting.

I also started working on some kind of shrug, like I said before. Here is a work in progress picture aswell. Now I have to overlock it and then put a ribon on the edges. Then I'm going to add beads and chains to the shoulder ;-)

Chaotic

I am litteraly doing everything at the same time..

I wanted to start this morning sewing a blouse. I started overlocking everything until my thread broke.. too bad I don't know how to put the thread in it again.. Now I'll have to wait until mom comes home :(
Next thing on the to do list today was starting a big drawing. I started with it but then I thought about my essay so I started again working on my essay.. I don't know where to start first..

And then I read a mail about that we had lessons today at school.. Shit!
I feel a bit hectic today! I'm putting my food in my mouth in only a minute.. like I don't want to loose time.. which I do in the end because I sit on the computer..
Oh well, I'm going to work further while listening/singing Emilie Autumn songs.

This evening I have lessons again :( such a waist of time!
I also have to make an earring for tomorrow (someone lost one of her earrings so she needs a replacement).
I feel also a bit better again. I really want to go to fashion school! I'm very curious for saturday! Also, it's tomorrow open doordays at my school (Sint Lucas Ghent)!

Chaos allover!

new work

I feel like I have been so lazy last days! However I did make a commsion, some earrings, and finished some hairclips laying around (not much work anymore on it actually.. but you know, I'm lazy sometimes!)


Now I am working on some kind of schrug, but not really a shrug. I actually can't explain it. It's like the opposite of a one-sleeve-top. It's made of lace and I'm going to add chains and beads. I will probably not sell it because I think it won't fit for everyone. It's made upon my measurements (I used myself as dummy).

I wonder if you would be interested in seeing some fashion sketches of me? They aren't very well drawn, but it's the idea that counts. I think I'll have to put more time in how I draw my fashion sketches... not simple ordinary pencil sketches, but with ink and watercolor maybe. I'm going to take some time for that! I actually carry my fashion sketchbook with me whenever I'm on the train.

Now it's time for food! Hungry! And then off to Ghent!

Life of an artist part 2

Making decisions is one of the hardest things in life I think. I can't sometimes even make decisions for smaller things. But on the other hand, I am sometimes: I want it like this and not else!

I am always afraid when I make a decision that I make the wrong one. That's what happening now again with fashion school. What if it's again nothing for me? What if it will be again too arty farty? I want to do MY thing.
On the other hand I still like drawing. And today I made a little book for school and I was supprised that I let myself do something that does not fit into what I'm used to do. So I'm never sure how much I should let myself influence by others. I just want to be proud of what I make (and get recognition). And I'm alsou doubting: should I keep it for the assignment, or keep it for atelier...

That goes for fashion aswell. I like influences by other designers like dolce&gabbana, McQueen,... But I don't want to be influenced by fashion that is absolutely not my taste. Or like I would say it: something I'd not wear (no matter how weird or normal it is).
And I keep on thinking.. Will I make the right choice? Is fashion what I really want? Or is it art? Or am I in both not strong enough? I am afraid to fail.

Uncertainities, it's a big part of an artist life :)

Also something I'm doubting about.. should I get my two blogs (art and fashion) together? Because now I'm even putting personal shit in it! :P (sorry guys!)
And it would be great if my readers interacted more with me.

I also want to advertise for other designers out there! So if you are interested in that, you can leave a comment ;-)